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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Friday, January 30, 2009
25 things

25 things u didn't or maybe u already did know about me

1. I love horses and anything to do with them

2. I feel like i am living a double life, one in canada one in singapore

3. I sometimes wish i had family in canada like everyone else

4. I still think about my ex boyfriend at times even though i shouldn't cos he is ASS

5. I swear the person that yelled at parents over a boy and did so many things she shouldn't have with a person who shouldn't have been given a chance to was a different person- carolyn was not present

6. I'm sometimes surprised i'm not clinically depressed over the amount of crazy shit that has happened in my life

7. I'm a closet musical lover, i LOVE LOVE and know most of the songs to a lot of broadway musicals

8. When i was 17 there was a time i wanted to work in the hotel industry, i even took applications to Hotel School in Switzerland

9. I'm incredibly grateful for having religion, there are times when i don't know what i would do without God

10. There were times when i was at Bronte college ( high school in Canada) that i would wake up in the middle of the night and have an overwhelming feeling of saddness and feel like i was all alone in this Canada. This has never happened at Waterloo

11. I almost tried smoking once, i was sooo close to picking up the cigarette. Yes that means that even i was susceptible to peer pressure. Thankfully i didn't

12. I have never tried weed or any drugs in my life- ever and never will

13. I wish i could handle a decent amount of alcohol without my face turning beetroot red and have ppl assume i'm drunk

14. I sometimes miss talking to kyle- then when i hear him talk i get pissed off again and am glad i don't speak to him anymore

15. I have never gone to a club... ever and i'm 19... that is sad

16. I absolutely love dancing in a disco/ party/ club-like atmosphere

17. I sometimes regret quitting figure skating when i was 13, but it was horses or skating

18. The first guy i really made out with was from nigeria and black

19. The Adam Khoo motivational camp was what i needed... It really helped me, it was not a waste of money

20. I want to someday write my and publish my novel, i just have so many ideas i forget them if i dont write them down

21. Dressage ROCK ROCKS ROCKS (Sorry random)

22. I sometimes wish i continued with the guitar and not forgotten

23. The time when i was in secondary school were some of the worst / lowest times in my life, i felt like i was invisible... and still do in social setting now sometimes

24. I dont really like goin back to singapore for long periods of time, if i dont have anything to do....

25. Coming to Canada to study was the best thing that could have happened to me- ever

Sunday, January 25, 2009
HORSE SHOW

Went to a horse show today.... it was FREAKING FREAKING COLDDDDDD

THink negative 20

And... i was only in jeans, a tank top, sweatshirt over it, UW equestrian windsheater and my blue winter jacket over that, followed by a brown scarf, beanie and hood over it. I borrowed karen's blanket and wrapped it over my jeans, warmed my legs up!!!!

But yes, i really should have worn a long-sleeved top under the sweatshirt...

There were about 10 schools at the show, queens, laurier, us, york, UofT, Brock, guelph, western. Divided into 4 classes, open, intermideate, novice and beginner. I could definetely do novice or beginner. I now am determined to try out for the team next yr!! Our team did ok i thought, one girl got 3rd place, but it was good cos she was on a super fast grey ( i would have freaked out at the speed)

It would be amazing... scary... but fun!

Friday, January 23, 2009
i want you.... I want you so bad..........

3 weeks into my second term at Waterloo... Already finding housing for next semester... damn that is FAST. But it is exciting... i mean living out on my own with a bunch of friends..

Classes are going ok... Religious studies is fascintating, Social pysch is interesting, Soc is... Um disappointing... Im sorry but it really isn't as excting as i thought it would be... I preferred Pysch, In fact i am glad i decided to pick psych, now all i have to do is get over 75 in Ennis's class... which I REALLY NEED!!!!!!!!!

I just NEED NEED to get my grades up... Oh gawd... it's so much presssure. Uni is tough...

Plans for the summer..
Take a job in HR in Singapore
Ride as much as i can
Figure skating lessons again
COMPLETE DRIVING AND GET LICENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Sunday, January 18, 2009
Ski Laufen

It is a mistake to...

a) Ski in about twelve degrees below freezing without a ski mask or goggles
b) Take german again ( or maybe im jus saying it cos i am taking it, i would say the same with any other language)

Now listening to Jamie Cullum again, i think i've been listening to too much rock, i find jazz too slow now... i don't know why, too much fast music. I've always liked jazz, i just have to learn to reappreciate it... and DAMN CAROLYN GET OFF BLOGGER and do YOUR
A) german
b) psych notes

But i dont want too!!!!!!!!!!!
here i go again

The weather has been an ass... so fricking cold... it's gotten so cold that walking outside is painful at times... the hands go first, then the cheeks sting. ouch.
YES YES i do want those GORGEOUS LEATHER BOOTS !!!!!!! they look like riding boots but me wants them!!

ok i have to stop being such a bloody consumer... ist nicht gut!

And no.. i still don't talk to kyle... it's weird... i do miss him actually, talking to him really. But it is sooo awkward to even be near him... sometimes i think tha ti should just talk to him again... but i CANNOT dammit just CANNOT. I just have to think about all the things he lied to me, lied to my face about... and i won't want to talk to him again. Why do they always have to deceive me??
ok, probably better that i don't...... is it really so hard to find a good guy who won't lie to you, who woud be true to you..

Oh if i could bump into my Mr anonymous again... yes the guy who helped carry my printer to rez.. if i could just find you again... and least get your name... ( or number lol)

Sunday, January 04, 2009

First post of 2009

And so my 2 weeks in singapore comes to an end.... i leave tmr at the crack of fricking dawn.

And miss 2 days of school

But i guess i am kinda looking forward to starting new classes and seeing all my friends again.
i don't know the next time i will be back in Singapore, probably only in 2010, but i do not 100% know yet.

For next semester... i will

1. Improve my grades
2. Get involved in Riding lessons and Figure skating again
3. Excercise regularly
4. Make more friends / be more social

The 3 days in Bintan were FUNNNN
Did wind surfing, which is FUCKING HARD, try balancing on a surfboard and hoisting up a mast!! something that weighs twice as much as you do! Jet skiing was a little scary but sooo amazing!!11 that feeling of power and force over the ocean and you fly over the waves!! AMAZING !!

To just lie on a a deck chair basking in the sun, feeling the cool breeze over you, listen to the queit rustle of the leaves and constant pounding of the waves against the golden shore. PEACE. Not having to worry about anything and just RELAX

AHHH