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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Thursday, April 30, 2009
GODDAMIT

It is always a matter of wanting what you don't have....

I have been encounterig a wave of bad luck... i'm like some kind of strange omen, it follows me fricken EVERYWHERE. Or at least a various times in full form

a) I ddidn;t do that well i Psych,i mean WTF??? i fucking busted my ASS and WORKED AND STUDIED SOOOOOOOOOO hard for it and yet i dont get the mark i want. What is this?????

b) Fucking Swine fucking flu, due to the immense paranoia and media play-up it's gotten everyone freaking out and now i can't go to Novia scotia, it IS NOT FUNNY. See i always had a feeling it would be too good to be true, when something is too fantastic it usually isn't real . the biggest FUCK MY LIFE

c) Now im stuck here in Singapore for four months... WHY WHY WHY????? i should have just gotten a sub-let, taken an DE and a job and stayed on in Waterloo, instead of coming home. Now im going to be stuck here

d) I have no life or friends here, it's so hard to arrange with ppl to go out, they have THIS or THAT and do not bother to contact me.... I WILL not take it to heart, i have more reliable friends back in Canada who i can count on. I feel i have no live and am spending waaay too much time at home with waay too much time on my hands

e) If i don;t go to Nova scotia, i am GETTING a JOB and getting my licence. I am not going to bore myself to death

FML

Saturday, April 18, 2009
Take it to the top now

In roughly 12 hrs i am leaving rev for good

Mood- Strangely calm, the im-going-to-miss-this-place ness has not set in yet... My room is more or less packed. I have. too. much. shit.
Least im storing it with someone ( i can trust will not unfriend me during the summer and throw my things out)

It's been an amazing 8mths, like i've mentioned many times, i feel i finally fit here and feel liked. Waterloo has been good ( in some ways ) to me.

What i have learned in 1st year at The university of Waterloo

1. There is no thing as a place that is too far, if you can walk it, it ain't far
2. Canadian Geese own fricken waterloo, you GIVE WAY to them , you do NOT question their authority. Pecking order as follows, 1st Geese, 2nd People
3. People are apathetic, they. simply. do. no. give. a. shit.
4. omguw.blogspot.com, nuff said
5. Studying for accounting is easier than finding a date
6. If you want to hold a rock concert, try the REV hallways, PERFECT accoustics
7. If there is alcohol, it's a party
8. people need to stop having faculty wars,
9. Staying up past midnight is no biggie
10. You skip classes to study/ finish assignment for another class

And i have officially finished my 1st year at university
I am amazed

Thursday, April 16, 2009
when i arrived on planet health

I DO NOT WANT TO LOOK AT FUCKING ACCOUNTING

everytime i look at it i panic i can't rememeber all the damn formulas i have memorise for that 2 1/2 hrs or how to draw out a damned schedule in a master budget. I don't want to remind myself of how i am going to fail/ barely pass this exam and how everyone else is going to pass with flying colours and me feeling dumb again.....

No, i don't care about the continiuty flow formula or contribution margins, WIP or cost of damn goods manufactured. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh

I don't want to fail i don't want to fail I CANNOT FAIL

Yet i have to, i still have the day to study for accouting and i will have to.

Other concerns
- Should i take home my big suitcase ?
pros: i can probably fit everything in
cons: I might still have extra room for things

- Little suitcase
pros: I can fit everything in and it's a LOT lighter
cons: I may run out of room

Knowing me and my tendency to over pACK and make misdecisions i am going to be going back and forth for quite a while.
Good luck to me

And im going to miss rev
Im going to miss doing my own laundry, just walking to the caf for food, not having to worry about cooking my own food , having my friends around all the time, walking to get anywhere instead of having to sit in a car, the whole atmosphere of REV, staying awake till dawn, going out late and going home any damn time i want, walking to church, not having to tell my parents where i am at.

Hey, at least im coming back for 2nd yr

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Tuesday, April 07, 2009
End of 1st Year Post

Ok... here it comes...

So, i've finished my first year at Waterloo, it has been a truly amazing year.... Well that is to say the least really. University is just an awesome experience that is indescriable. It's hard work, torture, full of laugher, friendship, pushing yourself beyond your comfort zone, doing things you never thought you'd do. Getting to know sooo many people, growin up, making mistakes, learning from them, new experiences. Entering a new phase of life, all that cheese.

I've learned more about myself, pushed myself, become more confidence.

YEs, i will be SADDD to move out of REV which has been my home for the last 8 months. A short but sweet 8 months where soooo much has happened. I'll miss...
- Going out to v1 for food
- Staying up till 3 am
- Watching movies in each other's rooms
- Shopping at conestoga/ fairview
- Whinning about caf food
- Walking MILES to class
- All the great lectures i've heard this term

The thing about university is that you can actually study things YOU like, are intereted in and have profs talk about ACTUAL things that make sense to you and make you go " wow! i didn't know that! that is sooo cool" Like my RS class, it actually really did impact my faith, i never expected it to. Before, i felt that not going for confession, not following certain catholic customs was considered bad and i felt guilty for it, that i wasn't the " ideal" catholic, i was a buffet catholic, only taking what from the faith what i wanted and not EVERYTHING. But then again.... who is to say that i am not catholic and a bad one at that? Who can criticize me, just because i do not follow it does not makes me anything less? It's my choice, i do not go for confession because for me i don't feel like it is disconnecting me from god in anyway, what is wrong with just directly speaking with him? am i wrong for having this opinion? Is there anything wrong with questioning it? Im not questioning my faith directly, just some of the practices. Is it wrong to be a critical thinker? I remember someone told me something about atheists reading biblical texts and studying theology, knowing it better than believers do. My response now would be.... well... so? If they want to do it out of interest that's up to them, that is the same as me studying buddhism and sikhism and not believing in it, i just learn out of interest sake. What is wrong with that? I used to feel strongly about atheists, but i don;t anymore. Just as long as you don't go around telling ppl with faith they are wrong. I won;t either, or go around trying to convert them, i mean, if they want to fine, if not then so be it!

Damn went off-topic, oh well.

Tha'ts what i learned 1st year oh and that social pyschology makes the world go round, it fricken explains everything.

Saturday, April 04, 2009
Can't read my can't read my poker face

LIVE REV, Daisy;s room
It's 1.40am, i should or should not be asleep... In daisy's room, it's funny you can be in someone's room and the real occupant(s) aren't even there.

Rommel and caitlin are engaged in an epic hand-slapping battle, tammy is busy facebooking/ chatting with her bf via msn, my roomate is asleep along with most of her floor, stephanie is getting busy with her bf in her room. Daisy just walked in, upon seeing photos of her infamous birthday night on tammy's computer gets a little heart attack " ARE YOU UPLOADING PICTURES ??!"

We're supposd to be watching a movie.... dunno if we will, it is 1.47 am now. Caitlin flops now on the bad, with rommel making her bear do inappropriate things lifting it up cryin "STI" !!

Daisy looks at me and says " FUCK I WILL NOT POP MY PIMPLES!" Apparently i remind her of justine. Tammy is currently creeping kyle's facebook....... eeeeecchhhhhhhhh
Prit walks in, caitlin tells him to lock it and orders him t bring her keys. Daisy discovers her shoes got trashed last night ( along with her tehehehehe) Rommel claims he's a jew about money. We start deciding about weapons that should be kept in a household. Tammy says every house should have a gun, caitlin describes how it increases suicide rates and prit says he should have a sledgehammer in his home. Daisy starts watching her birthday surprise videoes again.