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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.




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Thursday, May 27, 2010
Reason # 257 why I should not return to Singapore

Read this:
www.straitstimes.com/STForum/story/STIStory_531394.html ( including the comments) and this www.straitstimes.com/STFORUM/story/STIstory_528911.html
When i first read this, i kind of laughed and agreed slightly ( at the back of my head going " geez don't they know women ARE SUPPOSED to marry and have a family?, before realising that it was just my socialization into a culture that thought that way, that gave me that immediate reaction)
Is it just me or does this sound a tad bit unfair and a step backward for the whole annwomen's liberation/ movement thing? Firstly i thought feaminism was a good thing? I didn't say VAGINA more than five times or yell CUNT on stage last year FOR nothing... ok I do psun't expect everyone to do that but...

Well i suppose a lot of things can only be explained in a Singapore type of context. Like NS or whatnot. I mean, I would do NS, if i had to and won't complain. After all, even in Malaysia woen do it too.

I admit, the article is true in some ways, I am no way saying that marriage and motherhood is neccessarily negative. It can be wonderful, for the women who CHOSE to do it. I myself would want marriage and kids. But sacrificing a career? im not sure. Ok so maybe i don't get it cos im young, still in school, haven't really seen the "real" world yet. Maybe then i'll learn
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Completely contradictory to what i've been brought up with. I attended an all-girls schools. Im glad I did, it was there that i really learned GIRLS could do what THEY WANTED. GENDER did not stand in the way of anything. ( IJ Had a kick-ass robotics team, future women engineers !!)
Im not saying career women are at all bad. My mum chose to give up her job to raise us and I appreciate the sacrifice she made. I admire all housewives, housewifery is not a dirty word, neither IS GENDER EQUALITY.

In fact, actually more men should be stepping up to parenting. They too are part of the package.
What's wrong with women having high standards when it comes to men? It says a lot about snelf-esteem and confidence. And also.... blaming those women who are with abusive men,saying it is THEIR FAULT all i can say is STFU, you are NOT in their shoes so don't JUDGE. Sometimes women don't have the support they need to leave... they fear for their or their children's lives.
Isn't trying to end domestic violence ( directed toward women or men or children) a good thing?

What is wrong dvancing the rights of women? is feminism that controversial? For me, I don't think so.

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Wednesday, May 19, 2010
The late night post

It's been half a week of scrambling to fucking find some housing for fall term. I realise my tstandards have been lowered i don't care as much as i used to. Yes i would love to life close to campus but at this point that doesn't seem like a possibility.

Darn must-apply-only in groups policies.. damn NOT just putting down a deposit on WCRI.. I just did things with the advise from people and it just ends up biting me in the arse.

What i am/ was worried over

1. Housing
2. Quiz for tmr... im probably not going to do great anyway no matter how much i study ( i hear u saying don't think like that!! but hey im jus preparing myself )
3. The wish and WANT to excel and get GOOD GRADES, lets face it im no A student, not by a longshot
4. Figuring out what i really want out of a career ade
5. Gosh i wish i had more friends, I really wish i had a great bestfriend i could talk to and depend on HERE in waterloo ( i know i have you andy.....)
6. How i kind of lost a CORE group of friends.... i know i lost them a long time ago, with things slowly disintergrating before my eyes and me not really wanting to care or do anything abt it ( but then again they didn't either)

I wish i was more social, a better student, dammit the bottom line is i just fucking want people to like me. I know i cant get everyone to do that.
I;ve had to handle rough shit from people 4 times in my lifer
a) ten yrs old, one teacher wacks me in private for being a slow learner in music class, another calls me names for being terrible in math class ( this is NOT the 60s this is iin 200o!)
b) 16 yrs old- Another strange falling out with a grp of people, but then i nevth er really felt alal that connected, i was soo kwai at that time
c) 18 yrs old- manipulative and emotionally abusive ex bf ( i say it now in hindsight) though he i WAS the 1st guy i ever fell in with. I was honestly not the same person after. I did things that were totally out of character, never AGAIN (i hope)
d) 20 yrs old- I made a bunch of amazing friends in residence, i finally felt i belonged somewhereo, i FIT IN. I felt so loved. Move out off campus with them, things changed. We never talked things fell apart, its lying in a dusty unopened cabinet now a pandora's box of conversations that never happened.

Ok, im stopping now, this is too sad.... Its just i recently opened up to other ppl about this and i feel i need to express it in written word... somewhat



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Sunday, May 16, 2010

Adventure in unexpected places....

Went to a police/ bike auction this weekend, got woken up by the bf at 5.30am. Due to an overestimation of time we ended up shivering on a roadside in brampton for 1 hr, the trueismeaning of CHILLING. Then we walked down a gravel road into this old industrial building/ warehouse which was filled with tables of antiques, hardware, silver, lawgnmowers and the row of BIKES. He found this grey-ish green racing bike. It was slightly rusted, looked slighted dated but still useable. We hung around for an hour and my slight irritation and annoyedness with the situation dissipated over time. It was a really unique new experience.

Xia yu got the bike! for only $30. He was grinning from ear to ear when he got it, like a small boyappy at christmas, i would probably be that happy if i someday got me own horse.... ( no more happy)

We went home to drop off the bike... then headed out to squareone. After booking the 6.40pm movie we went off to walk around before heading for a DELICIOUS steak dinner at Jack Astors. Iron man 2, was fab entertainment. Ok, so the storyline wasnt as starong as the first one. But hells yeah Tony Stark is the COOL millionaire playboy, and the special effects.... COOLNESS

On sunday, I GOT MEINEN RIDING BOOTS, Breeches and chaps for $140!!!!!!11 can you say FUCKING CHEAP???

ohh yeahh

the best bit of this weekend? im gonna sound really cheesy but.... i spend it with that special boy.
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Question/ story suggestion- Can a smart, classy, educated chinese * u could say singaporean* woman marry an ang moh and not be considered an SPG in this day and age?

Sunday, May 09, 2010
She's baaaack

SOrry about the LOOOONG haitus

But the girl is back.

Did not really feel like blogging when i w as back in singapore. So didn't for about 2 weeks, and im only just starting again. Summer term is more crowded than i expected. Ive seen people i havent seen in months!!! Gave up phil 215 to take psych 338. Ive managed to find paid and volunteer work this term!! which i am glad. Also will work on getting that DRIVER's LICENCE even if it kills me!!!

And i think i may be able to come home to singapore sooner than expected!!
but im thinking abt travelling around or something for a while... we will see.