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Sunday, January 30, 2011
Vagina monologues Year 2
Ok, I didn't quite feel as much magic as last year. I mean, maybe cos the novelty wore off a bit. This IS the second time round I am doing it, and by now I think i know this damn play inside out. I dont think I will be auditioning next year. Twice is enough.
Still, I think my acting was better this year, but it is easy to throw much emotion into the peice that I am doing. Just imagine and think about the indignation those women feel, what they went through.... will never even be aknowledged by the Japanese government, all th pain and hardship they endured. In silence. I have asked ppl " have you heard of the comfort women?" many have not. Not many ppl know of the atrocities carried out, the World War II sexual slaves all silenced all alone, the shame and dishonour they felt when it WAS Not even their fault. THey had done nothing wrong. So at the end portion of the monologue I just belted it.
It was fun again this year, some of the performances I felt were done better than last year. COochi was amazing, the best, best rendition I have ever seen. Cunt was not as good as last year, but good job to the two who did it this year. The flood was SOOO brilliant!! i normally don;t really like that monologue but the girl took it and made everyone think she was 65 and not 21!
Not as much magic I felt, but still wonderful wonderful performances.... major props to the girl who did the moans!! I would not be able to strip down to just black underwear and a bra on stage!!
Still, I think my acting was better this year, but it is easy to throw much emotion into the peice that I am doing. Just imagine and think about the indignation those women feel, what they went through.... will never even be aknowledged by the Japanese government, all th pain and hardship they endured. In silence. I have asked ppl " have you heard of the comfort women?" many have not. Not many ppl know of the atrocities carried out, the World War II sexual slaves all silenced all alone, the shame and dishonour they felt when it WAS Not even their fault. THey had done nothing wrong. So at the end portion of the monologue I just belted it.
It was fun again this year, some of the performances I felt were done better than last year. COochi was amazing, the best, best rendition I have ever seen. Cunt was not as good as last year, but good job to the two who did it this year. The flood was SOOO brilliant!! i normally don;t really like that monologue but the girl took it and made everyone think she was 65 and not 21!
Not as much magic I felt, but still wonderful wonderful performances.... major props to the girl who did the moans!! I would not be able to strip down to just black underwear and a bra on stage!!
Friday, January 21, 2011
I bet he's all she ever thinks about at night
A few days ago : Im trying desperately to finish my essay for HR... Its at a point where, yeah I have little motivation to do it, along with the whole list of things I have to get done which is annoying / stressing me out as deadlines loom above my head saying " INEED TO GET READ Or I NEED TO BE COMPLETED... oh by YESTERDAY"
Fuck
Vag mons '11 is coming up soon, which I am excited for, and oh did I mention it is FUCKINGCOLD outside, I wish I wore something other than the freezing cold paper thin shrug and t-shirt under winter coat.
Rehersal for vm '11 is onsunday, which means I need to complete this 5 page paper by tmr latest ( fuck fuck fucK) though it probably CAN be done
TOday: Essay DONE!!!! well has to be, its due tmr... Rehersal went well!! compared with last yr, the rehersal went sooo much smoother, ppl knew their lines better, I messed up just a little bit but it was ok.
When the three women part went up, I was curious to see how this year's cast was taking it, at first i was like " whoah, they did a waaay more animated job than us, were we bad?" then the directors took over, Lauren at least who did this piece last year ( and jess) still had to give them LOADS of feedback. So now i don't feel soooo baa
I thought Hair was done well, the flood was amazing! workshop was far TOOO enthu and FAST, coochi was done brilliantly ; the actress did the best rendition of it I have ever seen... ANgry was different... it wasnt outwardly angry, more of a quietly sacrastic and pissed off kind of way. I would just want to see kierce do it. As for the moaner.... HOLY CRAP I will leave it at that.
I wishihadacariwishicoulddrivewuithmoreconfidence cos then dammit my horsey dreams would come true, rediscovered a DRESSAGE barn 20 minutes from school, coincidently owned by the ex chairman of the university now-governer-fucking-general of canada. They have horses for half lease... but I don't own a car or have money for it. So sad.
Fuck
Vag mons '11 is coming up soon, which I am excited for, and oh did I mention it is FUCKINGCOLD outside, I wish I wore something other than the freezing cold paper thin shrug and t-shirt under winter coat.
Rehersal for vm '11 is onsunday, which means I need to complete this 5 page paper by tmr latest ( fuck fuck fucK) though it probably CAN be done
TOday: Essay DONE!!!! well has to be, its due tmr... Rehersal went well!! compared with last yr, the rehersal went sooo much smoother, ppl knew their lines better, I messed up just a little bit but it was ok.
When the three women part went up, I was curious to see how this year's cast was taking it, at first i was like " whoah, they did a waaay more animated job than us, were we bad?" then the directors took over, Lauren at least who did this piece last year ( and jess) still had to give them LOADS of feedback. So now i don't feel soooo baa
I thought Hair was done well, the flood was amazing! workshop was far TOOO enthu and FAST, coochi was done brilliantly ; the actress did the best rendition of it I have ever seen... ANgry was different... it wasnt outwardly angry, more of a quietly sacrastic and pissed off kind of way. I would just want to see kierce do it. As for the moaner.... HOLY CRAP I will leave it at that.
I wishihadacariwishicoulddrivewuithmoreconfidence cos then dammit my horsey dreams would come true, rediscovered a DRESSAGE barn 20 minutes from school, coincidently owned by the ex chairman of the university now-governer-fucking-general of canada. They have horses for half lease... but I don't own a car or have money for it. So sad.
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
Teeth Sinking into Heart
So maybe this should be a back-to-school post.... but, I feel compelled to write about something else.
I was reading a note written by an ex catechism classmate who is studying in melbourne pondering the fact that she may never permanantly return to Singapore.
I realise her note echoed many sentimemts that I do feel and have felt over time, and have not quite articulated in written form, I may have spoken about it briefly but..
Here it goe
Besides the obvious reasons of my immigration status there are other factors involved.
1. Horses- My all-consuming #1 passion, I know I can only truly and probably make this dream come true here. SIngapore is no place to really have a horse, I want my horse/s to have wide open spaces to run around, gorgeous hills ( Like Carole's bdf farm) Dont tell me to go to Malaysia. Plus it's more affordable here
2. Morals/ Values - Ok, wasnt sure how to title it.... You could say it's a result of my exposure to the so-called "westernised mindset" Westernised? what westernised? I am still in a mini-battle in my head over this one But I think I am firmly on one side at this point. It has to do with everything Ive learned here all the education/ courses I have taken. University is all about exposure and I have had all these windows thrown open to me and all these view points.
Well, not just that, I guess its the ppl I have been around, the friends I have made that have changed and molded me, and the experiences I have had that have made me a different, evolving, ever-changing person.
Especially the so-called "taboo" issues. Things like improper sex education in ( well I wasn't even really taught abt contraception) It's SO sex negative. Which is the opposite of what Ive learned here ( thanks SMF) Other issues such as GLBT, last term I was involved in a project, where the use of a simple word "non-heterosexual" really touched base and I can honestly say I because of that experience I can't tolerate it when someone goes on a tirade about how wrong " homosexuality is" PLEASE. I could go on all day, but i will stop here. Why is gay sex in SIngapore still illegal? Being gay is not wrong or diesease, I just feel sad for the young ppl who are taught that what they are feeling makes them scum or criminals by authority or friends.
Is me being sex-positive and a glbt suppporter too westernised? I don't think so
3.It's changed
SO Ive said how Ive changed and grown, living away from home etc. But yes the SIngapore I have once known, is just really this place that I visit only 1x or twice a year now. It is quite sad really thinking about it, but the stark truth is, IT IS THAT. In my absence it has evolved, I didn't expect it to stay dormant no. But it's become so radically different. SIngapore reminds me of a little girl who is trying too hard to impress someone, getting all fancied at dolled up to look like a " big girl" with all the fancy IRs, more skyscrapers, more malls, huge international events, ( dont get me started on the 30 YOG horses) WHen all I want to say is just STOP trying so hard to be everything!! you don't have anything to prove, you are BEAUTIFUL just the way you are. I mean even when i do get my canadian citizenship, I will always call myself a singaporean.Because that is what seventeen years of living there did to me( ok enough cheesiness)
The changes and new developments are great and all, but one ha to wonder, is this all a little too far?
4. The few things that might be keep me there are family and friends. If my family came over here, that would be wonderful. tbut I dont think it's possible. I have my friends but then again there is always the wonders of the internet, plus I have friends who are in other countries too.
The truth? I guess its called growing up, growing apart, ever-changing.
I remember in primary school when some classmates and I were forced to write some Lame NDP poem strangely i still recall a few lines
SIngapore is our homeland
We treasure it like gold
cos if we abandon it
It will surely go
something tells me, this homeland is getting on fine without me.
Oddly enough, I wonder if the Oh Canada will ever grab me the way the Majulah Singapurah does
I was reading a note written by an ex catechism classmate who is studying in melbourne pondering the fact that she may never permanantly return to Singapore.
I realise her note echoed many sentimemts that I do feel and have felt over time, and have not quite articulated in written form, I may have spoken about it briefly but..
Here it goe
Besides the obvious reasons of my immigration status there are other factors involved.
1. Horses- My all-consuming #1 passion, I know I can only truly and probably make this dream come true here. SIngapore is no place to really have a horse, I want my horse/s to have wide open spaces to run around, gorgeous hills ( Like Carole's bdf farm) Dont tell me to go to Malaysia. Plus it's more affordable here
2. Morals/ Values - Ok, wasnt sure how to title it.... You could say it's a result of my exposure to the so-called "westernised mindset" Westernised? what westernised? I am still in a mini-battle in my head over this one But I think I am firmly on one side at this point. It has to do with everything Ive learned here all the education/ courses I have taken. University is all about exposure and I have had all these windows thrown open to me and all these view points.
Well, not just that, I guess its the ppl I have been around, the friends I have made that have changed and molded me, and the experiences I have had that have made me a different, evolving, ever-changing person.
Especially the so-called "taboo" issues. Things like improper sex education in ( well I wasn't even really taught abt contraception) It's SO sex negative. Which is the opposite of what Ive learned here ( thanks SMF) Other issues such as GLBT, last term I was involved in a project, where the use of a simple word "non-heterosexual" really touched base and I can honestly say I because of that experience I can't tolerate it when someone goes on a tirade about how wrong " homosexuality is" PLEASE. I could go on all day, but i will stop here. Why is gay sex in SIngapore still illegal? Being gay is not wrong or diesease, I just feel sad for the young ppl who are taught that what they are feeling makes them scum or criminals by authority or friends.
Is me being sex-positive and a glbt suppporter too westernised? I don't think so
3.It's changed
SO Ive said how Ive changed and grown, living away from home etc. But yes the SIngapore I have once known, is just really this place that I visit only 1x or twice a year now. It is quite sad really thinking about it, but the stark truth is, IT IS THAT. In my absence it has evolved, I didn't expect it to stay dormant no. But it's become so radically different. SIngapore reminds me of a little girl who is trying too hard to impress someone, getting all fancied at dolled up to look like a " big girl" with all the fancy IRs, more skyscrapers, more malls, huge international events, ( dont get me started on the 30 YOG horses) WHen all I want to say is just STOP trying so hard to be everything!! you don't have anything to prove, you are BEAUTIFUL just the way you are. I mean even when i do get my canadian citizenship, I will always call myself a singaporean.Because that is what seventeen years of living there did to me( ok enough cheesiness)
The changes and new developments are great and all, but one ha to wonder, is this all a little too far?
4. The few things that might be keep me there are family and friends. If my family came over here, that would be wonderful. tbut I dont think it's possible. I have my friends but then again there is always the wonders of the internet, plus I have friends who are in other countries too.
The truth? I guess its called growing up, growing apart, ever-changing.
I remember in primary school when some classmates and I were forced to write some Lame NDP poem strangely i still recall a few lines
SIngapore is our homeland
We treasure it like gold
cos if we abandon it
It will surely go
something tells me, this homeland is getting on fine without me.
Oddly enough, I wonder if the Oh Canada will ever grab me the way the Majulah Singapurah does