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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Monday, December 31, 2012
Ode to 2013

Last yr at this time.... I was in toronto... ringing in the new year with ben at a lesbian bar in downtown. It was fun, but just seems miles away at this point. An entire year has gone by since then. So much has happened and changed, but at the end of it, I feel a lot happier as a person.

Happiness is a choice. One can choose to fill their lives with joy and contentness and focus on trying to see the good and staying positive. Why dwell on the negative when you can choose to be happier and see the beauty in the world. Despite all the setbacks one might encounter, just being grateful for what you have, appreciating, fully experiencing, and choosing to see the strenghts and good in people as well as being good to others goes a long way.

For me the  biggest things were graduating from university, getting used to being on my own ( and liking it!) and finally training to be child and youth worker, and experiencing love once again

Graduating from university was big. If anything it was something to prove to myself that I did it. I had done it. I had done something I never really expected of myself.  I had survived four years in one of the most academically rigorous universities in canada.

With graduation, I finally had the freedom to pursue what I realised i truly loved. I embarked upon a child and youth worker program, not really knowing what would come of it, but now it has given me a drive and ambition and opened up a world where I truly feel like I belong and this IS the career for me.

Being on my own again, I am finally in a place where I am happily single. I am not actively out there searching for partner, but taking my time and not rushing into something. I need to consider my needs and my criteria. I am now at a stage where I know what I need and want.  I can see what I don't need or want. Its taken me a while to get here. But I am glad that I have.

On next yr...
I am nervous about what is to happen this yr.... who knows right? its filled with some certainty and uncertainty, certainty in the sense that I know where I will be for the next year. Uncertainty in the sense that I really don't know what this year will bring. But then again, that uncertainty brings with it a kind of hope and excitement for what is to happen. I am excited for internships next yr, the people I will be meeting, and how things will shape out. Its true I don't know what will happen, but what I do know is that, I want to stay this happy and positive, I need to further find out what I want to specialise in within my field, do my best, stand up for myself more, be grateful for everything I have, and find god more in my life.

Sunday, December 09, 2012
End Of term Post

Its end of 2012 more like

So I haven;t posted much at all this year. Maybe I am slowly outgrowing blogging here. Or find less of a need to. But I will still post.

This year is just wow.... Ive been single the entire year..... and its been ok.

The last four months have been just amazing. Graduating from university and moving to toronto have just opened me up to so much more! I can hardly believe it.  I am so glad I am pursuing the CYW course, its the best decision ive made since graduating from uni. Do not regret it one bit. Ive learned sooooo soooo much from it.

Ive met so many people, I love where I am living. I am finally in a good place. I am finally happy and at peace. I am so grateful for it, I deserve it. 

For now, things are going well. I am grateful, and I am happy for it.