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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Wednesday, August 04, 2010
The truth ( part II)

Each time, it changes, or rather gets enhanced. I understand now I was the scapegoat the one targeted and blamed. It is NOT fair, Im over getting pissed off about just because it was a while ago. It must have been so easy, with me being the easy-going, agreeable type who can be " dominated over" It's not OK to make someone feel shitty every time they come home, to feel like even their mere prescence is an annoyance. Yeah sure you can say that " oh you felt that way yourself..." but there has to be reason behind it all. I had to go to counselling services, it was that badd, i couldnt speak to anyone because everyone d idnt want to take sides. I was bullied- again.

She was my good friend, I adored the time we spent together and how close we grew. I thought it would last a long time. Unfortunately not.... people change, not neccessarily for the best. I thought thigs would return to normal after i left, but it didm't. In fact, things got worse! Im just disappointed and saddeed by the way things panned out. It may have bee great for you, but it was not for me. You cannot get away with being so dominant, having double standards ad thinking you are right all the time. I honestly hate writing this and it pains me but it is true. I wish i could get the old friend I knew back.... but i know it is too late ad maybe you were already like that... and we were just too blind to see it.
Living with ppl ruined some of my relationships, but allowed me to find some that i really could take with me. ( tammy)
Maybe we gave V too hard of a time..... we did't see it through her eyes, maybe she used to be the scapegoat, granted what she did was wrong but i can only imagine what it must have been like.

Monday, August 02, 2010
First and Last

So i expected to be riding Hunter today, got there early, tacked him up blah blah

Then got into the ring and he stopped, stretched out as if he had to pee. So i waited... and waited... okkk a horse straining to pee... not a good thing. So i didnt ride him.. instead i took jake.
YES it is times like these that i think GOD syces/ grooms would come in handy RIGHT NOW!!! i can imagine, aziz or someone sauntering down in rubber slippers to tack up the other horse. But no, this is NORTH AMERICA. No such thing one.

So somehow managed to untack hunter, despite there being 3 other horses crowding up the aisles.

Then got on Jake for a private lesson. So i worked on getting my heels down, sinking the weight to my heels. Jake is super nice and a trooper so he did everything i asked of him. We did some cantering and trotting standing in stirrups, and i have to say i think my balance has IMPROVED!! a bit at least..

After then in the canter, laura had me working on getting a light seat in the canter, sort of like standin a bit in three point but more straight and upwards. I think i almost got the hang of it... sor of... SEE I am learning the north-american hunter style!!! yaay!!!!!

We then did some jumps, andd i think i nearly nailed waiting for the jump!!!! progress!!! sit, sit and wait... try not to swing leg back too much, push legs forwards instead, lean forwards, push butt back. We did the jumps in canter and in trot, really GOOD LESSON!!!! im happy my last lesson turned out to be such a useful good one!! i learned so much in one lesson, ahh regular lessons....

Hunter! i will be back next time, HE better jump!!