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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Tuesday, February 15, 2011
And my heart told my head this time no

Valentine's day was yesterday

It was the best one I ever had

Mainly because for the first time, I think i am over all the corporate/forced celebration of it. No it's not cos Im single and bitter.

Because I didn't cave in to the pressure of it, me and the other didn't celebrate it, and it was the most liberating feeling in the world, to not feel forced/pressured into something. And I didn't feel underloved,at all. It's wonderful to not feel obliged to follow a prescribed corporate holiday, when you want to, the best thing is to not, and instead make your own V-day.

Later on, I got a call from one of my best friends, he just called to say he loved me. That just put a mile-long smile on my face, when someone tells you they love you, it makes all the difference in the world. it doesn't matter if I don't have a ton of friends or a constant clique around me all the time ( i used to, but it kinda got fragmented) , Its better to have a few wonderful buddies who love you than a whole bunch who don't really care, or just pretend.

Yes I should get back to studying.... gawd I hate 7am mornings and sleeping at midnight.

Tuesday, February 08, 2011
WHo do you think you are?

Dear xx
You don't actually even deserve a mention, its been so many years and you rarely crop up in my mind, but when you do.... You are just a person from my past.Am I silly or sentimental for remembering you? But I think I can now finally erase some of that sentimentality. To make it seem like you never existed, it's not that I regret you, because I don't regret any of it, how would I have learned otherwise? How i came to love you i don't know. But after I thought abt it yesterday,it made me realise, if i could have faced you now, I would given you hell for all the things you said to me, yet at the time I didn't stand up for myself. I admit Im not totally perfect now, but at least I hope I am stronger than that. In fact the way you were with me makes me laugh now, how childish i was at the time, looking for a way to finally rebel and ending up paying the price. You did not break me, you changed me. and now you a nothing more than a distant memory..

If I saw you now, I would ask you if you were sorry abt what you did to me. I would hope you are, and that you apologise to me.