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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Saturday, May 28, 2011
The end of the Golden Era

Went to see saddle club today, all the horses have changed I no longer recognised most of them, but the one who was left was old songks, he was still there, a little greyer, his delicate head hangingout of the box, pacing ( he had seen a some hay on a nearby wheelbarrow) He was awfully friendly, letting me rub his forehead and pat his neck. I still loved that little sucker. But i guess all good things come to an end, only sandra was still there, still teaching.

A week or so later i bumped into jun at a bookstore, she looked different, wearing thick eyeliner and a cute white top, me as usual feeling inferior dressed in a brown zip up top, capris and wedge heels, dangly earrings and no make up. She's studying law in london, along with some the other girls whom they " don't talk much anymore / we've all changed/ everyones all over the world" kind of thing. Yes the end of a golden era, but one i was never really part of.

I guess maybe we were all sort of connected by this common love for horses, one that i will always keep, no matter the era.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Have I told you lately that I love you?


I don't want to cry over this anymore, there's an emptiness now, something's gone. You are gone, you with you gorgeous smile, your sly grin, the way you would just plaster everyone with love... I miss you so much baby, you were the shining sun, what gave us joy, I never wanted to think about the day you could go, but you did, I am so sorry we weren't there to see you go, but I knew you were in pain and were suffering, why did you have to go so soon?

It;s so difficult to imagine a life now without you, without hearing your feet shuffle across the floor, without you drooling everywhere or running around chasing the birds or cats. Ten years, ten years, you saw me grow from an awkward eleven year old, then to leave Singapore as a seventeen year old. You saw all of us through so much, and you are the brother I never hard, I will never run with you in the fields again or go over jumps with you. You were so kind and so loving, and enriched our lives so much for the last ten years, you've changed all us

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or
let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit -
it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me

( James blunt)