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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Thursday, January 17, 2008

Hello again,

I really shouldn't be here now

I should be finishing my damn bio ISU on Cystic Fibrosis. Exams are next week........ sooo stressed....... erghh i just have have have to do well. Sure i may have some term marks, but not all, i'm most scared for biology, fucking killer subject. I will just be happy if i don't fail. I know i CAN score for law ( 90s PLEASE) Family studies get my grade up to at least late eighties, it's not that difficult ! actually not at all............

And then........ i am DONE with all my credits ! all six ( rather 7) cedits all done. I have been in Canada now since end of March 2007, 10 months. A lot happens in 10 months......... my world changed in ways i never thought possible. I never thought i would have an overseas secondary education, at least pre-u anyway.

At least now i have a concrete plan of what i'll do between now and may. Do Advanced placement courses, well i did want to do them, so i guess now is my chance to do it. Just not sure if i really sure........ and i have just one day to decide, tmr is the deadline.

At least i'm feeling a lot better now, i was feeling really low for a while ( LOOONG STORY) but at least now things are more settled. The other day, i was just walking back to school after going to the bank, and i suddenly felt happy again, the horrible pitted feeling in my gut was gone, i felt happy again......... ( i got my appetitite back a bit ) the only good thing about me having that pitted feeling in me was that i completely lost my appeitite ( as a result lost 3kg ) So i know what makes me lose weight ( muahahahaha ) Not that it is supposed to be that funny.........

Here's a a little something that i wrote to guess who
You came into my life like a thunderstorm
Turned it all around
Showed me a side of myself i never knew
it seems like we have to cross the deepest oceans just to near each other
I wish i could just cross a road to be at your door
but it;s never that easy
But in your arms i'm so happy
With no-one else in the world i would rather be with
People may have other things to say
but they don't matter
But i love you
and if you don't believe me just put your hands on me
just now know i'll be true for you
I lay awake next to you, watching you breathe
I know you think putting hope in me is impossible
But baby i'm not giving you any grand illusions, hope is something we all can have
Just pour your hope into me
I know i've disappointed you and not lived up to what you want
It hurts me when i don't do that
But believe me baby, just put your hands on me