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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Friday, November 14, 2008
It's all happening so fast.........

Just as the seasons change, the weather grows chilly...... the cold wind slaps your face, and leaves you bitter against the wind. Scarfs swirled on your neck, hands dug deep in your pockets. Thoughts swirling in your head.......

Too many thoughts.... it;s only 3 weeks till the end of the classes. Amazingly fast... i don't believe it. And shocking stuff has to happen.... that really touches you to the core and leaves you gasping. Your initial thoughts.... how the hell is this happening? why does this has to happen? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY??????? this is the stuff of soap operas? am i in desperate housewives? Grey's anatomy? i'm not... but as life goes on, the older you get, the more you realize how un-understandable the world is, it's cruel complexities. How can two people you thought were decent conduct such as atrocious act without thinking delving into something seriously unforgivable and extreme? This situation just sucks and you although you are not directly involved you know the people involved.. you're their friends you can't help but be involved.

It's easy to blame, i's easy to point fingers and blame. YEs, but once you get over the initial reaction, they are both to blame. How it manifests... does anyone have any self-control left? I'm torn, i don't want to hate, yet at the sametime i know she's so wrong and what they did was so wrong, unforgivable and the ultimate act of betrayal anyone could do to anyone.
It's not fun to be the shunned one, the one that everyone would throw the rocks and spit at. You don't wish that on anyone.... yet i hope she knows the magnitude of what was was done and that the consequences of one's actions, especially ones so deeply seriously would be dire. It;s easy to feel your heart harden and want to be like everyone else, point the fingers and shun... i don't want to do that, it's wrong.

But at the same time..... she needs to deal with the magnitude of her actions. Its not at all something light, no-one will look at you the same way anymore. You've reached the point of no return and committed the most cruel act of betrayal to someone. Plain and simple, but then you can't punish someone forever, but for now... you have to live with what you have and deal with it. You have to, cos what was done was unfair and wrong and you have yourself and the other person to blame. The two did it to themselves... You have to live and deal with it for now. You have a lot of explaining to do to people... i will miss your friendship for a while... but for now, you have to live with the consequences of your actions.