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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Friday, December 12, 2008
Again and again

Once again......

WHy do i always end up with idiots? i never asked for perfection, just the feeling like a could be in a relationship. I was in for all the right reasons, i don't want to hate at all, i don't want to put you in a box and get angry. But the more i think, the more aggravated i get. Here i am, in it for all the right reasons and ready to try to love again. But then, i just get trambled on again, thank god i didn't put myself totally into it. I don't know why i didn't...... probably because i'm still scared from the last fool. Scared of being hurt again, being lied to and mistreated again.

All in vain, what you did... i should have never ventured in, but i did. Thinking it would be ok, but i guess not. I thought you were ready, i was , but you weren't. I gues syou're just to ignorant to see it, just too mentally wrapped. Me, just fucking begging for you to at least pay some goddamned attention to me. To just talk to me, tell me what is going on in your head, but no. You say nothing to me at all, what am i supposed to feel? you ignore me and i'm your so-called girlfriend. WHat the hell? what the hell am i to you?? if i had invested more feeling into it i would have been a real wreck. But thankfully i didn't.

YEs thank you stupid boys, look what you've done to me.

My next romantic adventure turns out to be a freaking disaster. Just when i thought i could make a fresh start, a new beginning, it just turns out horribly. It had the potential to be great! i liked you so much! i wanted to be with you.... but you didn't. WHY? You disappointed me so much...... You just let it ll fall apart, i was there for you... but you never aknowldeged it or me.

You're right, i don't fucking deserve you. I don't understand why you had to do it. Did you forget that i existed? Ignoring me is hurtful, it's as if i;m not alive to you! WHY?? soooo aggravating... and then there is HER. I don't know what wierd connection the two of you had...... whatever it is, i guess i don't have it with you. What is it? whatis special about that girl? what does she have that i don't? Right now, i don't care about you or her. You can do what the hell you want with her. It was so tirring to be possessive over you, i've never been made to feel like i had to be suspicious and wander if she was spending time with you again. Was she ever there for you like i was? i don't know, maybe she was. She broke up with you and you still will always like her. I don't understand why. Right now you can spend as much time as you want with her.

I liked you so much a friend, now things have changed. It disappoints me you had to be like that, think how it wcould have been. I was ready and there, you weren't.