Writing this now in hostel in Washington.... I like travelling, but i am looking forward to going home. Back to Singapore, not neccessarily complete familiarity but home at least. But wait... once you go away to a different country your concept of home changes. What is home anymore? who is family?

I've been in Canada for the last two years and four months, when i go back to Singapore im out of touch with it, both physically, emotionally ans socially. When i went home i realised just how consertive it was, how much more liberal canada was compared to it. I had forgotten. Maybe it seems dumb that i didn't realise it, but i didn't, once you immerse yourself in a different society you end up viewing things from a new point of view. Well i couldn;t help it anyway. I've grown up and changed so much in the time i've been away. Experienced many new things which will shape me and which i will take with me. From Being at Bronte to an intern on a fjord farm. I alwaya say, i never thought i would end up here, but i do and find it unbelievable.

Like this summer, i never thought i would bring on a young horse, i would one of his first riders. Or introduce saddles and bridles to colts, did i really know what i was doing? i was basically just learning as i went along! WOuld i learn so much about driving and meet so many amazing people ? i don't know.

Today accomplished a lot with stephanie, went to the meuseum of women in art, the Meuseum of the American Indian and went to watch SPRING AWAKENING!! which i couldn't help but make references to Singapore and how we could make a Singaporean version of it!! a) Oppressive sexual culture b) Emphasis on academics c) Awkward BGR

I think i have had enough travelling for a while, enough jetting around, im ok with going home for a month and not going anywhere or doing anything in particular. I will be fine with that. I have accomplished sooo much being away. I also can't wait to move into my new apartment and start a new school year, i really don't mind.

Going back to ride at RL will be very different for me, my equine-confidence level has increased after being a " staff" at a barn i feel i can do anything now. Im not as backward as i thought! HELL I BROUGHT ON A YOUNG HORSE, I WORKED WITH COLTS!! I WORKED WITH SOMEONE WHO GOT A FUCKING PLACE TO COMPETE AT THE WORLD EQUESTRIAN GAMES. So suck it IT OTHER RIDING GIRLS WHO MADE MY YEARS OF RIDING WITH ALL OF YOU FUCKING MISERABLE and my confidence being lowered. YEs, i do know, even among the interns i am not the best, i don't know everything, and i still don't, but as long as you want to learn. Now my regret is not getting BOb to teach me to drive.

But hey, how many people get to ride gypsy vanners? take care of them?? eh ? eh??? muahahahahah
But the sad thing is that
It is over, i have gone, it's never going to come back, im never going to see pie or sky or lexie, or my baby ORION again, i miss ringing the triangle and yelling " COME ONE GUYS!!!!!!!!!! COME ON!!!!" at the top of my lungs like a fucking goatherder or defying death by feeding adolescent colt monsters or going on poop duty.

In any case, i am ready to come home, or at least my Singapore home.

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