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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Sunday, September 27, 2009
Cowgirl don't cry

Or at lest try not too........

How do i feel right now, like i should have known these things but just didnt want to listen. The last thing i ever want to do is to hurt anyone... and yet i unknowingly end up hurting those closest to me. I hate hurting ppl unless they deserve it.

These people are my family away from home. I know this, they look out and care for me and i am COMPLETELY grateful for that. I thank god that i have found these people who genuinely are interested in my welfare.

I don't want to be faulted on anything anymore. I don't want to be in the wrong i don't want to be the one that is causing problems for people.

Dammit the bottom line is that i just want to be loved and accepted by people. I don't want to the one left out in the cold. But at the same time i am forgiving, i just am too soft and get taken advantage of.

I just feel guilty for hurting others when i didn't even know i was driving someone insane. I honestly hate that feeling. I just don't want to be a screw up anymore, it feels like most of my life i was one. But i need to stop feeling sorry for myself and just fricken move on with it.