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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
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I had a crappy first day back, or maybe i should just have been happy about it being eventful.

I agree to meet X for lunch, excitedly thinking " oh good things are going great" when swing goes the pendulum and it's " Im sorry i need to concentrate on my work, Im not ready for a girlfriend" crap flies up. Im not saying I don't believe X needs to take the work seriously, I respect that and i understand it. What i don't understand is why i got fucking played. I didn't do anything... wrong. All i did was be there, sure i loved the attention. Having somone walk me home during orientation week, sometime to hang out with all night. Someone i could talk to, someone i enjoyed being with. Hey it could have been something.... but no. Once classes start.. "BAM, i need to study now, it was fun knowing you GOODBYE " And i just sat at the bus stop and took it, im a nice person all i said was " well if you think you will never be ready for a relationship you never will be" Ok, am really not so stupid as to fall for for it straight away, but still. A little bit of yourself does get a little disappointed.

to self: Fine whatever, his loss not mine

Am i ever that lucky? No. Am i destined to be alone forever? i sure as hell hope not. Seriously, i have not been able to get into a serious committed real relationship for a over a year since the break-up with he-who-shall-not-be-named. Is there something wrong with me? or is there something wrong with them?

Somebody help me
please

disclaimer: If i sound like a stupid love/ relationship obsessed freak i apologise. Merely venting my frustrations.