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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Monday, March 22, 2010

I WILL NOT BE CONCERNED WITH LIVING SITUATION

How can I not? i fricken live with them? maybe im the only stupid one wigging out. I seriously dunno how i am going to face spring term.... with them.... one word ERGH
n't
I know you don't like me... there is no need to be bitchy or show attitude to me. I have just been doing my own thing, so let me do my own thing. It is unfortunate things are so like up and down... and i don't really talk to them
different things i should do
eytng to
a) Don't think abt it
b) Don't think abt it
c) Say nothing and just let it be
d) Why the hell did i get myself into this?

I know I must not be filled with hatred, but i feel the hostility and bitchiness, my heart seems is)so full of range, about burst, i want to scream i want to cry i want them to STOP
Why do people have to be so unpleasant and bitchy? Maybe i ouam being too sensitive, i should just let it go. It sucks living with ppl who cant love you unconditionally the way family can ( someone told me this)

Why is there the sign " SHUT THE FUCK UP" on my housemate's door?
Why can't we be more pleasant to each other?
Here is my rant

We used to be friends a long time ago
I don't want to keep thinking about this, i thought we were over it
I don't want to make a thing of it
But it is a thing, it gets to me
I don't want your attitude
Your steely looks at me
Living together ruined everything
I know i should disregard it, not think about it
That is what everyone tells me
I try and i try
But i know i cannot always avoid it
So i step on tenterhooks, i try not to displease anyone
This is fall term all over again
This time i at least have support
We used to be friends
Now you face with hatred
I don't want the hate, i just want peace
It doesn't matter if we can't be good friends anymore
Ive gotten over that a long time ago
The pain i had to go through.... Maybe you felt it too
Why this happened I don't know

I don't want to hurt anymore
I want peace
I want to be loved, i want friends and people i can rely on
I want people i can relate to and talk to
I get lonely, when i try to talk to you, you run away,
So i retreat away again
Back into the pecking order
in my space, where i don't want you to hurt me
You will not hurt me
I will stand firm
I will be strong and not cry

I will not hurt
We used to be friends


Ok i will stop now