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Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

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Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Cos Im bored/ stressed/ sona-is-being-an -ass/ i just read steph's blog

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You got the introduction... Ah the subject of ethnicity and singapore and anti-oppression, and political correctedness and white people wanting to be that and me being bitchy/ irritated/ roll my eyes because of that.



First off... Yes I am anti-oppression and very strongly against violence

. In any way shape of formhowever what I am against is the annoying assumption that are put on about me concerning race. I know the intentions are all good and kind and political correct and smiley faces, rainbows and peace signs.

I GEDDIT



I now see the point, Asia doesn't really want to be rescued. I don;t speak for the whole of it.... nor am i degrading the amount of aid from the west that is pouring that. I thoroughly applaud what they are doing.

Or maybe I just don't want to rescued.

DOes not mean I am not proud of my race or who I am. I am a Singaporean, I am ethnically Chinese. My ancestors were from China, but I have no links/ ties to that country at all. China is not the " motherland" I don't think I have one!



Like my name for example. Please don't start going on an endless tirade about how im not honouring my race... PLEASE. There is more to being chinese than speaking it. Just because a white person can speak Mandarin does that make him Chinese ?

On my UW Id it say " hui yi Chan" Fine whatever... it's supposed to be Carolyn Chan Hui Yi. English AND chinese name. I GREW UP in an english speaking home. My father does not speak it, my mum does, my maternal grand parents don't speak it, you know why ? cos it was in an era where singapore was part of malaysia and so on... doesn't make them any less chinese does it? ( btw i am peranakan too which is a great part of my heritege but thats another story)



Someone once said to me, Oh why do you use Carolyn and not your chinese name ? Why did you make up the name Carolyn? did you pick it as your english name you poor ESL kid ? why are you not honouring your CHINESENESS ( ok that esl part was made up)

because Carolyn is my first name DUH!! when i meet ppl i don't say " hui yi" yes it is my name but its not my first name.

IS that not oppression in itself ... the freedom to want to call myself by whatever name i want. Maybe