<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/37752057?origin\x3dhttp://afterthesilence-x.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Born in Sg, survived seven years of IJ, escaped to canada for the miraculous rebirth.. likes to say she found self there, But well when can we reach self actualization? now a waterloo student. 110% horse mad, was practically born on the back of a horse ( or rather wishes she was) horses are my favourite thing.

Bituwin - template
Dementee - image

You can keep me out of your mind that's alright.

Hit counter code here

Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Letter to my teenage self

After reading older blog and diary entries written by myself when I was still in secondary school. Ive decided to pen a letter to my younger self....
Dear 16 year old self,
You are beautiful, yeah it sounds like a cliche, but it is true. You may think you have it tough right now, you feel invisible sometimes ( still do sometimes now) that people don't love or accept you, they call you wierd or strange. Honey, it is all going to change, remember you are special and you need to LOVE yourself. You are worth it, you are kind, loving, generous and giving and you have innate goodness about you that you will keep. You know right from wrong and aren't afraid to show it. Your grades should NEVER determine the kind of person you are! your self worth should NEVER be tied to your academics, it is TOTALLY different, KNOW that!! Do NOT let the system let you DOWN! they should NEVER make you feel lousy!! don't indulge in self-hate!
Keep your passions, you are different and unique, you are perfect and don't need to change yourself for ANYONE. It doesn't matter if you have a boyfriend or not even if you long for one, believe me, you will have boys in your life!! be true to yourself, its hard to figure out who you are at this time, and you know its ok to question yourself. Just remember that people love you, you are never alone ( I still struggle with that) Help others, try making a difference in other's lives, spread love. Be kind to others! smile! be friendly! if they don't like what you have to offer! then fuck them!
Carolyn you are beautiful and AMAZING. The hard times will pass and you will have even more challenging times, but your life is soon going to change for the better, if anything, cherish the experience you have now cos it's not going to last forever.
being young is hard.... but you are doing a good job! keep it up and just LOVE yourself, you are an amazing person!
Love
Carolyn