Say goodnight

Ive been over this a million and one times... thought about it for weeks, days, on end. All of it looping around never coming to a conclusion, and then I did. Ive talked it over so many times, but now its so over. I am sorry for what I've done, I loved you, I swear I did that's not a lie. I was the one you loved, i don't deny that. After what I did I had to question myself if I loved someone why would I do this to you? Why I couldn;'t answer that question, maybe now I can.... slowly at least come to some sort of answer to it.... Its hard its never easy, I never meant to do the things I did to you. But things working out again? Ive thought about it a million times and I just can;t see it anymore. I am done, i loved you, but it's done. I wish you would accept it and move on with your life. I know you think there is more to us, but I can't see it, its a two-way street. I never ever ever meant to hurt you at all. We had beautiful times and Im not mad at you at all, I was just unhappy. So you think I made a tremendous mistake in thinking this way and giving up on us..... but I need this, I need to figure myself out properly and what I need. I may be the right one for you, but I don't think you are the right one for me. It sucks I know, Im not going to lie about that, believe me I cried and agonized about this for days, but guilt is not going to keep me back, putting you first I always always did that, we did that for each other all the time. But I felt you constantly picked on me, never accepted me for who I was... that i was always wrong..... I should have raised it, but I never did. I was afraid of being alone without you, and I admit its not gonna be completely easy. But I am not scared anymore.

12:33 PM ·